Too much, yet not enough

I want to share with you all the work that I have done so far this and last academic year. However, there is a lot of it and so I don’t know where to start. (Also, I’m writing this post instead of writing my final essay of the year – procrastination on 100% right now).

When I moved out and started art school (1.5 years ago) I finally started to work on sticking to a schedule, doing work on time and not leaving everything to the last minute. I have to say, I am proud of the work I did and of the decrease of my laziness. But.. then covid came along and ruined all that. At first, it was a blessing and I worked through it and finsied my first year. Why a blessing you ask? It was the time I needed to spend time with my family and to further work on my talents, doing work I wanted to do (such as set up a small business – I’ll talk more about that soon). Unfortunately, when second year came around the motivation lessened. But, my amazing flatmates helped me through the first semester but thankfuly we had studio access which meant it wasn’t that bad.

It is now the end of semester 2 and I do not feel acomplished (is that grammatically correct?). My tutor told me today that he is impressed with my work amount. I’m not. I know what I can do and I know that I haven’t done it. Having to sit in front of the same computer screen, on that same uncomfortable chair… that’s not art school. Truthfully, I say I’m working but honestly I watch WandaVision and play solitaire (so, I shouldn’t complain about the lack of time to complete all my work for deadline). Don’t worry, I know most of society is having that motivation block, but I wanted to write a post filled with my complaints before I got back to work. I don’t think I have ever experienced such a block. I spent so much time just staring at my screen incapable of even reading back some notes I wrote. But it has to be done. I’m writing about Nostalgia and Sound Art. I have some thoughts about that. As a musician and someone that likes tradition I don’t particularily care for contemporary developments of sound art (not music – there is a difference). So far, my essay sounds like a rant about skill no longer being respected. When (or maybe… IF) I finish writing it I’ll definitely share.

I’ve just realised how boring this post is, but it will give you some context on my current state. 🤷‍♀️

I think I’ll start by posting my 300 word image analysis pieces as despite the fact that I hate writing essays they were quite interesting in the end and so why not share them.

See you in 5 mins with the first one 👌

The Gab Eye